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Offline CD

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Re: Clean and tolerable
« Reply #2 on: May 04, 2011, 11:55:08 AM »
 8) 8) 8)   It took me a while to realise what clean and tolerable meant.When I came into the rooms I knew I was an addict.But not how bad my thinking patterns were . I got clean but still have moments that I need to worh on the tolerable part.I have been told that.It is a daily job being a recovering addict.    8) 8) 8)
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Clean and tolerable
« Reply #1 on: April 29, 2011, 12:06:24 PM »
Honesty got me clean; tolerance keeps me clean."

I didn't realize how dishonest I was before I entered recovery. I had half truths and misleading by omission down to a fine art, and by the end of my drinking and using I was even good at deceiving myself. I didn't know it then, but the practice of being rigorously honest was the cornerstone of my recovery, and without it I never would have gotten clean.

Another thing I didn't realize before recovery was how intolerant I was of other people, places and things. Once I began looking at myself, I found that my first reactions were to judge, reject and condemn others. What I discovered was that my intolerance was a defense mechanism covering my deep feelings of inferiority and shame, and it wasn't until I discarded these that I began to live comfortably in my own skin.

What I've learned over the years is that if I want to remain comfortable and clean, I've got to continue to practice tolerance. Now when I feel like judging or condemning others, I quickly look within and ask if I'm scared or if I'm feeling less than. Once I'm honest with myself, I'm able to deal with these feelings, and this always restores me to tolerance of myself and others.

Today I realize that honesty got me clean, but that tolerance keeps me that way.