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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on Today at 02:41:57 PM »

September 2 , 2015

Higher Powered

“Daily practice of our Twelve Step program enables us to change from what we were to people guided by a Higher Power.”

Basic Text, p. 86

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Who have we been, and who have we become?  There are a couple of ways to answer this question.  One is very simple:  We came to Narcotics Anonymous as addicts, our addiction killing us.  In NA, we’ve been freed from our obsession with drugs and our compulsion to use.  And our lives have changed.

But that’s only the tip of the iceberg.  Who have we really been?  In the past, we were people without power or direction.  We felt like we had no purpose, no reason for living.  Our lives didn’t make any more sense to us than they did to our families, our friends, or our neighbors.

Who are we really becoming?  Today, we are not merely clean addicts, but people with a sense of direction, a purpose, and a Power greater than ourselves.  Through daily practice of the Twelve Steps, we’ve begun to understand how our addiction warped our feelings, motivations, and behavior.  Gradually, the destructive force of our disease has been replaced by the life-giving force of our Higher Power.

Recovery means more than cleaning up—it means powering up.  We have done more than shed some bad habits; we are becoming new people, guided by a Higher Power.

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Just for today:  The guidance I need to become a new person is ready at hand.  Today, I will draw further away from my old lack of direction and closer to my Higher Power.

Copyright © 1991-2015 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on Today at 02:40:06 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote     9/2/15


Recovery is not an event; it is a process. The disease of addiction affects all three aspects of our physical, mental, and spiritual selves by changing our behavior (to self-destruction), thinking (to self-serving), and allegiance (to no purpose). It was a slow debilitating process. Recovery is the same slow process in reverse.

I am in the process of changing my behavior to self-construction, my thoughts to service, and my allegiance from no purpose' to a higher purpose.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on September 01, 2015, 12:07:36 PM »
September 1 , 2015


Real values

“We become able to make wise and loving decisions based on principles and ideals that have real value in our lives.”

Basic Text, p. 105

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Addiction gave us a certain set of values, principles we applied in our lives.  “You pushed me,” one of those values told us, “so I pushed back, hard.”  “It’s mine”was another value generated by our disease.  “Well, okay, maybe it wasn’t mine to start with, but I liked it, so I made it mine.”  Those values were hardly values at all—more like rationalizations—and they certainly didn’t help us make wise and loving decisions.  In fact, they served primarily to dig us deeper and deeper into the grave we’d already dug for ourselves.

The Twelve Steps give us a strong dose of real values, the kind that help us live in harmony with ourselves and those around us.  We place our faith not in ourselves, our families, or our communities, but in a Higher Power—and in doing so, we grow secure enough to be able to trust our communities, our families, and even ourselves.  We learn to be honest, no matter what—and we learn to refrain from doing things we might want to hide.  We learn to accept responsibility for our actions.  “It’s mine”is replaced with a spirit of selflessness.  These are the kind of values that help us become a responsible, productive part of the life around us.  Rather than digging us deeper into a grave, these values restore us to the world of the living.

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Just for today:  I am grateful for the values I’ve developed.  I am thankful for the ability they give me to make wise, loving decisions as a responsible, productive member of my community.

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on September 01, 2015, 12:06:04 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote    9/1/15


Your life works FOR you. It hones you, teaches you, and makes you a better person. Nothing in your life happens to you, but for you.

This isn't happening to me, but for me.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on August 31, 2015, 11:34:26 AM »
August 31 , 2015

Gratitude

“Hopeless living problems have become joyously changed.  Our disease has been arrested, and now anything is possible.”

Basic Text, p. 106

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The NA program has given us more freedom than we ever dreamed possible.  Sometimes, though, in the daily routine, we lose track of how much we’ve been given.  How, exactly, have our lives changed in Narcotics Anonymous?

The bottom line of recovery, of course, is freedom from the compulsion to use.  No longer must we devote all our resources to feeding our addiction.  No longer must we endanger, humiliate, or abuse ourselves or others just to get the next “fix.”  Abstinence itself has brought great freedom to our lives.

Narcotics Anonymous has given us much more than simple abstinence—we’ve been given a whole new life.  We’ve taken our inventory and have identified the defects of character that bound us for so long, keeping us from living and enjoying life.  We’ve surrendered those shortcomings, taken responsibility for them, and sought the direction and power we need to live differently.  Our home group has given us the personal warmth and support that helps us continue living in recovery.  And topping all this off, we have the love, care, and guidance of the God we’ve come to understand in NA.

In the course of day-to-day recovery, we sometimes forget how much our lives have changed in Narcotics Anonymous.  Do we fully appreciate what our program has given us?

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Just for today:  Recovery has given me freedom.  I will greet the day with hope, grateful that anything is possible today.

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on August 31, 2015, 11:33:27 AM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote        8/31/15


Relapse is part of recovery: NOT! What the fellowships say is keep coming back SOBER. Members warn of the very real danger of that last relapse: stepping in front of a car or bus, overdosing, being institutionalized, and death! The truth is, any relapse can be your last. Never kid yourself, relapse is part of the disease process, not part of our recovery process.

I do not help people work on their recovery by OKing working on their disease. OK
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on August 29, 2015, 04:36:14 PM »
August 29 / 2015

Don't look back

 “The steps offer a big change from a life dominated by guilt and remorse.  Our futures are changed because we don’t have to avoid those who we have harmed.  As a result... we receive a new freedom that can end isolation.”

Basic Text, p. 39

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Many of us come to Narcotics Anonymous full of regrets about our past.  Our steps help us begin to resolve those regrets.  We examine our lives, admit our wrongs, make amends for them, and sincerely try to change our behavior.  In doing so, we find a joyous sense of freedom.

No longer must we deny or regret our past.  Once we’ve made our amends, what’s done is truly over and gone.  From that point on, where we come from ceases to be the most important thing about us.  It’s where we are going that counts.

In NA, we begin to look forward.  True, we live and stay clean just for today.  But we find that we can begin to set goals, dream dreams, and look ahead to the joys a life in recovery has to offer.  Looking forward keeps us centered in where we are going, not remorseful or regretful about our past.  After all, it is hard to move forward if we are looking back.

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Just for today:  The steps have freed me from regrets over my past.  Today, I look forward to my new life in recovery.

Copyright © 1991-2015 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on August 28, 2015, 01:11:36 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote     8/28/15


When you are having trouble doing one day at a time and it feels as though several days have attacked you at once, realize that nothing except your own thoughts can really attack. In fact, it is only your own thoughts that can prove to you that you have not been attacked or singled out unfairly.

I counter thoughts of 'unfairness' with the realization that I am very lucky the world has not paid me back for all the wrongs I've caused.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on August 28, 2015, 01:10:12 PM »
August 28 , 2015

The light of exposure

“These defects grow in the dark and die in the light of exposure.”

Basic Text, p.32

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The Fifth Step asks us to share our true nature with God, with ourselves, and with another human being.  It doesn’t encourage us to tell everyone every little secret about ourselves.  It doesn’t ask us to disclose to the whole world every shameful or frightening thought we’ve ever had.  Step Five simply suggests that our secrets cause us more harm than good when we keep them completely to ourselves.

If we give in to our reluctance to reveal our true nature to even one human being, the secret side of our lives becomes more powerful.  And when the secrets are in control, they drive a wedge between ourselves, our Higher Power, and the things we value most about our recovery.

When we share our secret selves in confidence with at least one human being—our sponsor, perhaps, or a close friend—this person usually doesn’t reject us.  We disclose ourselves to someone else and are rewarded with their acceptance.  When this happens, we realize that honest sharing is not life-threatening; the secrets have lost their power over us.

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Just for today:  I can disarm the secrets in my life by sharing them with one human being.

Copyright © 1991-2015 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on August 27, 2015, 11:24:13 AM »
August 27 , 2015

Choosing life

“Change from self-destructive patterns of life became necessary.”

Basic Text, p. 15

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Active addiction is a smoldering death-wish.  Each of us courted death every time we used.  Our lifestyles, too, put us at risk.  The life of an addict is sold cheaply with every day and every dose.

In recovery, the first pattern we change is the pattern of using.  Staying clean is the start of our journey into life.  But our self-destructive behavior usually went far deeper than just our using.  Even in recovery, we may still treat ourselves as if we are worthless.  When we treat ourselves badly, we feel badly.  And when we feel badly, we seek relief—maybe even in our old solution, drugs.

Choosing recovery means choosing life.  We decide each day that we want to live and be free.  Each time we avoid self-destructive behavior, we choose recovery.

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Just for today:  I will choose life by choosing recovery.  I will take care of myself.

Copyright © 1991-2015 by Narcotics Anonymous World Services, Inc. All Rights Reserved

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