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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on July 20, 2015, 12:16:42 PM »
July 20 , 2015

Step One

“We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.”

Step One

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The First Step begins with “we,” and there’s a reason for that.  There is great strength in making a verbal admission of our powerlessness.  And when we go to meetings and make this admission, we gain more than personal strength.  We become members, part of a collective “we” that allows us, together, to recover from our addiction.  With membership in NA comes a wealth of experience: the experience of other addicts who have found a way to recover from their disease.

No longer must we try to solve the puzzle of our addiction on our own.  When we honestly admit our powerlessness over our addiction, we can begin the search for a better way to live.  We won’t be searching alone—we’re in good company.

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Just for today:  I will start the day with an admission of my powerlessness over addiction.  I will remind myself that the First Step starts with “we,” and know that I never have to be alone with my disease again.

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on July 20, 2015, 12:15:04 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote    7/20/15


Through the Fourth and Fifth steps we learn who we really are. Once we know who and what we are, we don't have to be what we were.

Today, I am myself. I am perfect for the part.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on July 19, 2015, 04:11:13 PM »

July 19  , 2015

Fulfilling our dreams

“Dreams that we gave up long ago can now become realities.”

Basic Text, p. 71

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All things begin with a dream.  But how many of us fulfilled our dreams while using?  Even if we managed to complete something we had started, our addiction usually robbed us of any pride in our accomplishment.  Perhaps when we used, we dreamed of the day when we would be clean.  That day has come.  We can use this day to make our dreams come true.

To fulfill our dreams we must take action, but our lack of self-confidence may keep us from trying.  We can begin by setting realistic goals.  The success we experience when we attain our initial goals allows us to dream bigger dreams the next time around.

Some of our members share that when they compare the ambitions they had when they first got clean with what they have actually achieved in recovery, they are astounded.  In recovery, we often find more dreams come true than we could ever have imagined.

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Just for today:  I will remember that all things begin with a dream.  Today, I will allow myself to make my dreams come true.

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on July 19, 2015, 04:10:13 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote    7/19/15


Our program won't keep you from going to hell nor is it a ticket to heaven. But it will keep you clean and sober long enough for you to make up your mind which way you want to go.

My journey is my destination.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on July 18, 2015, 01:46:58 PM »

July 18 , 2015

The gift of desperation

“Our disease always resurfaced or continued to progress until, in desperation, we sought help from each other in Narcotics Anonymous.”

Basic Text, p. 13

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When we think of being desperate, we envision an undesirable state: a poor, bedraggled soul frantically clawing at something sorely needed, a desperate look in the eyes.  We think of hunted animals, hungry children, and of ourselves before we found NA.

Yet it was the desperation we felt before coming to NA that compelled us to accept the First Step.  We were fresh out of ideas, and so became open to new ones.  Our insanity had finally risen higher than our wall of denial, forcing us to get honest about our disease.  Our best efforts at control had only worn us out; hence, we became willing to surrender.  We had received the gift of desperation and, as a result, were able to accept the spiritual principles that make it possible for us to recover.

Desperation is what finally drives many of us to ask for help.  Once we’ve reached this state, we can turn around and start anew.  Just as the desperate, hunted animal seeks a safe haven, so do we: in Narcotics Anonymous.

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Just for today:  The gift of desperation has helped me become honest, open-minded, and willing.  I am grateful for this gift because it has made my recovery possible.

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on July 18, 2015, 01:46:05 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote     7/18/15


Sponsors are lighthouses, not foghorns. We look to them to see how they do it, not depend on them to tell us what not to do. We already know.

I cannot improve if I only have myself as a model.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on July 17, 2015, 05:57:58 PM »
July 17 , 2015

Using our "using dreams"

“Do we fully accept the fact that our every attempt to stop using or to control our using failed?”

Basic Text, p. 19

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The room is dark.  Your forehead is bathed in cold sweat.  Your heart is racing.  You open your eyes, sure that you’ve just blown your clean time.  You’ve had a “using dream,” and it was just like being there—the people, the places, the routine, the sick feeling in your stomach, everything.  It takes a few moments to realize it was just a nightmare, that it didn’t actually happen.  Slowly, you settle down and return to sleep.

The next morning is the time to examine what really happened the night before.  You didn’t use last night—but how close are you to using today?  Do you have any illusions about your ability to control your using?  Do you know, without a doubt, what would happen once you took the first drug?  What stands between you and a real, live relapse?  How strong is your program?  Your relationships with your sponsor, your home group, and your Higher Power?

Using dreams don’t necessarily indicate a hole in our program; for a drug addict, there’s nothing more natural than to dream of using drugs.  Some of us think of using dreams as gifts from our Higher Power, vividly reminding us of the insanity of active addiction and encouraging us to strengthen our recovery.  Seen in that light, we can be grateful for using dreams.  Frightening as they are, they can prove to be great blessings—if we use them to reinforce our recovery.

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Just for today:  I will examine my personal program.  I will talk with my sponsor about what I find, and seek ways to strengthen my recovery.

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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on July 17, 2015, 05:57:02 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote       7/17/15


No God; No Peace. Know God; Know Peace.

My program teaches me that I will have peace of mind in the exact proportion of the peace of mind I bring into the lives of others.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote
« Last post by CD on July 12, 2015, 09:06:38 PM »
Pocket Sponsor - Book - Quote       7/12/15


No one wants to hear the Sermon on the Mount or Zen philosophy when they're trying to save their ass. They want to know what to do not hear words of wisdom. Tell them what you did.

I do not get so spiritual, that I am of no earthly value.
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Meditations and ponderings / Re: Just For Today
« Last post by CD on July 12, 2015, 09:04:14 PM »
July 12 ,2015

Patience

“We were trapped by our need for the instant gratification that drugs gave us.”

Basic Text, p. 25

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“I want what I want, and I want it now!”  That’s about as patient as most of us ever got in our active addiction.  The obsession and compulsion of our disease gave us a “one-track” way of thinking; when we wanted something, that’s all we thought about.  And the drugs we took taught us that instant gratification was never more than a dose away.  It’s no wonder that most of us came to Narcotics Anonymous with next to no patience.

The problem is, we can’t always get what we want whenever we want it.  Some of our wishes are pure fantasy; if we think about it, we’ll realize we have no reason to believe those wishes will be fulfilled in our lifetimes.  We probably can’t even fulfill all our realistic desires; we certainly can’t fulfill them all at once.  In order to acquire or achieve some things, we will have to sacrifice others.

In our addiction we sought instant gratification, squandering our resources.  In recovery we must learn to prioritize, sometimes denying the gratification of some desires in order to fulfill more important long-term goals.  To do so requires patience.  To find that patience, we practice our program of recovery, seeking the kind of full-bodied spiritual awakening that will allow us to live and enjoy life on life’s terms.

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Just for today:  Higher Power, help me discover what’s most important in my life.  Help me learn patience, that I can devote my resources to the important things.

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